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Not sure if you have noticed but I have slowed down on my blogging this past month, Monday’s and Thursdays have become my posting days for a bit.
Life outside my internet community has gotten a tad demanding at the moment.
I am not one to handle stress well, or at all. But I am definitely in a place right now where I feel like a kettle whistling that shrill sound announcing to everyone that I am at my limit.
Our adoption agency has been so good to us and since they are a nonprofit agency they rely on donations to keep on going. They also do a lot of international adoptions which of course means that much of the money paid for the adoption goes to a different country. Since we too are one of their many international adoption families I was feeling a push. A push I thought was lead by God.
For two years I ignored it but finally I dared say it out loud….”let’s do a Silent Auction Fundraiser on their behalf”! Not sure what I was thinking….maybe it was God, maybe it wasn’t (yes, doubt has entered in). At the moment I am feeling too discouraged to really be able to know anymore.
Since they are a Christian Agency we have been hit with road blocks I never expected. Companies don’t support “religious” causes, can I just call that what it is? BULL SHIT!
Our committee has always been small but thankfully are working hard for the cause. I thought my biggest worries would be getting enough donations….but the truth has just hit me.
Ticket Sales, I’ve sold 26….we have 200.
I know there is plenty of time still to sell tickets and people don’t buy tickets till the bitter end but this just means I get to sit in a state of worry for the next three weeks praying that people will see this as a worthy cause.
So that is my new worry. Support is my new frustration.
I will tell you how it ends up once it is over. I pray it will be spectacular and that I will look back at this moment in shame, saying….”why didn’t you trust God?”
Right now I just need prayer. Prayer that I will stop worrying and actually leave it up to God.
With all this going on I have once again postponed the beginnings of my podcast which I of course still hope to make happen. I think I have postponed a clean house ever since the fundraiser planning started….but if I am honest it was a joy to have such a good excuse to avoid those duties anyways ;P
Postponing our adoption paperwork updates….that just can’t be done and lucky me it all expires in March.
So this February brings paper, paper and…..wait for it…….PAPER….hip hip hooray!
Talk to you again on Thursday 
Maybe I won’t be PMSing as much and will be super chipper! Ooooohhhhh, and if I am hoping for the moon I should reach for the galaxies too. Let’s hope all the tickets are sold by then!
God Bless You.
Planning a fundraiser, an exercise in trusting God. at ADOPTION MAMA.